5:50 AM. the phone call. brian answers. he goes into the other room. i am prepared. i know what this is.
he comes back, bewildered, horrified. "they say he went into cardiac arrest?! they're trying to revive him?!"
i take the phone. or they called right back. i can't remember. i speak with the vet on duty.
"we've revived your dog. it is very unusual that they come back, but he did. if you'd like to see him, now would be the time."
i tell her we'll be right there. brian asks what it means, that "now would be the time"?
i tell him that it means that milo will probably die.
we arrive at the hospital. dr. saint claire, the vet on duty, tells us that he failed again, and that they are administering cpr. they are on their second course of cpr. she asks us if we'd like to continue.
we say we do not.
she asks if we'd like to see him. i tell brian that i don't think i can. he tells me that he thinks we should, that it is the right thing to do.
she brings him in. we say goodbye.
i wonder if he ever had a chance. i wonder what would have happened if someone else had bought him. i often wonder about what could have been.
i mourn the future. i mourn what will never be. i don't think i can do this again. become so attached to something that wants nothing more than to love me back, constantly, selflessly.
i can think only of this song by stevie wonder:
"shattered dreams, worthless years
here am i encased inside a hollow shell.
life began, then was done
Now i stare into a cold and empty well.
the many sounds that meet our ears,
the sights our eyes behold,
will open up our merging hearts
and feed our empty souls.
I Believe When I Fall In Love With You It Will Be Forever.
I believe when I fall in love this time it will be forever.
without despair we will share
and the joys of caring will not be replaced.
what has been must never end
and with the strength we have won't be erased.
when the truths of love are planted firm they're only hard to find,
and the words of love i speak to you will echo in my mind.
I Believe When I Fall In Love With You It Will Be Forever.
I believe when I fall in love this time it will be forever."
he comes back, bewildered, horrified. "they say he went into cardiac arrest?! they're trying to revive him?!"
i take the phone. or they called right back. i can't remember. i speak with the vet on duty.
"we've revived your dog. it is very unusual that they come back, but he did. if you'd like to see him, now would be the time."
i tell her we'll be right there. brian asks what it means, that "now would be the time"?
i tell him that it means that milo will probably die.
we arrive at the hospital. dr. saint claire, the vet on duty, tells us that he failed again, and that they are administering cpr. they are on their second course of cpr. she asks us if we'd like to continue.
we say we do not.
she asks if we'd like to see him. i tell brian that i don't think i can. he tells me that he thinks we should, that it is the right thing to do.
she brings him in. we say goodbye.
i wonder if he ever had a chance. i wonder what would have happened if someone else had bought him. i often wonder about what could have been.
i mourn the future. i mourn what will never be. i don't think i can do this again. become so attached to something that wants nothing more than to love me back, constantly, selflessly.
i can think only of this song by stevie wonder:
"shattered dreams, worthless years
here am i encased inside a hollow shell.
life began, then was done
Now i stare into a cold and empty well.
the many sounds that meet our ears,
the sights our eyes behold,
will open up our merging hearts
and feed our empty souls.
I Believe When I Fall In Love With You It Will Be Forever.
I believe when I fall in love this time it will be forever.
without despair we will share
and the joys of caring will not be replaced.
what has been must never end
and with the strength we have won't be erased.
when the truths of love are planted firm they're only hard to find,
and the words of love i speak to you will echo in my mind.
I Believe When I Fall In Love With You It Will Be Forever.
I believe when I fall in love this time it will be forever."
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